I apologize for updating with such a crappy journal but I need to let this out and in a place where my family members won't see and misunderstand me over it. So yeah. Ignore this if you want, I don't care. xwx;
Is 22 too young to be going through an identity crisis? No, seriously. Is it? Because I swear I'm going through one.
I don't feel like I know who I am anymore. I used to call myself an artist but lately I can't even DRAW to save my life.
I have fleeting ideas for stories. But I can't tell a story anymore to save my life. Not fan fiction, not original fiction. I just fail nowadays.
I can't design unique characters that are pleasing to the eye and I can't think of creative ideas for any kind of art anymore.
I can't do...anything.
I seriously feel so cruddy, like I really don't know who I am anymore and it's enough that just thinking about it makes me wanna cry. I can't talk to my mom about it. She just tells me that it's what happens when you become a parent. I know that's true but I didn't think that in the process I'd lose who I am. I feel like I'm just this sad, pathetic shell of who I used to be. The old me would jump at any free time to do something creative and productive. Now, when I get time to myself I'm just glued to the T.V or sitting around with the 3DS. I'm even too lazy to get online and chat with friends even though I desperately miss them! I'm so uninspired and I hate it, this isn't who I want to be! D:
It's like I'm not me anymore. TT^TT